Crossroads or mirage? Only time will tell The hope is OW and HEAVY But I'm learning a lot about myself I've been thinking about studying counselling abroad! I'm really excited about it And I'm excited about Ozzy too But I don't want to confuse the two feelings and it's a bit frightening I talked it out with lovely M and he helped me organise my thoughts Gotta make sure Oz and I are on VERY solid ground before even debating a move like that If we aren't meant to be, then at least I've learned which direction I'd like to go in Building a strong relationship will definitely be an uphill climb, I have to be very clear with myself on my needs and priorities to be able to be clear with him And I have to really actively listen to understand his needs if he doesn't have clarity It's going to be a lot of work, and he might not even be willing or able to take it on--and as much as that would hurt, I have to respect that I need family, it's very important to me I chose family over California I only thought about Canada because of my sister and the kiddos I don't really see myself leaving Egypt otherwise, I mean barring an iceberg :) I don't actually want to go down playing violin on the deck But for now, this is what's important to me, this is what I hope for and this is what I fear Look, it's so organised Who is that? Hehe |