Spread too thin The last thing I want to acknowledge When I'm over extended and under appreciated Is that it's probably on me At a business meeting with the founders, we did an exercise to figure out what personal values motivate us M is Walt Disney incarnate minus the prejudice, he's all about imagination and dreams, kind escapism, think big and then worry about how A is about knowledge, education and self development-- not in a mad scientist way, the conservative curiosity of someone who was hurt and always wants the truth P is the dark horse, chaotic and rebellious-- he values freedom, his reflex is Why? Why not? He wants space, travel and most of all he wants choice My value is harmony, I want everyone to feel secure and rested--I want everyone to feel safe Your PTSD is showing Sarah It's true I try to and can't rescue people who resent me for it Since I was a kid drawing up a chore wheel in a toxic house, putting bandaids on broken bones In my very first therapy session almost 20 years ago (yeesh), the doctor made an oxygen masks on a plane analogy It's still really hard for me to say "no, I'm sorry, I can't help you" I try and I fail and I become public enemy number one anyway This is just a reminder If you're afraid they'll resent you because they think you won't They'll resent you anyway when you try and can't At least the first way, you'll still have some oxygen and maybe eventually the energy to actually help Put on your mask, it'll be okay and if it isn't-- it was never going to be okay and that is okay |