Everything so far Now I talk about pasghetti (my inner demon monkey) more than I talk as him or to him I'm learning more and more how to create distance I have to be on my guard a lot And maybe that's why I need space Douda makes me squishy and soft And it all floods in I feel bad because I know Douda's like me and needs squished all the time all the time And if the shoe were on the other foot, all of this would be heart breaking I feel like I have to wrap my head around something I'm so close to understanding but still can't see It has to do with love and boundaries I feel like for the first time, I'm the puzzle I thought everybody along the way led me to Douda and they did And Douda is leading me to myself He found my buttons He looked for them Nobody's ever looked for them And I didn't know I had any Every day with him is redefining naked It feels a bit like yoga and rediscovering my body I'm unsure and I'm scared and I wish I knew what to do I'll keep doing my best |