resigned to be heart broken I've been manically exercising Now I think all personal trainers must be heart broken And I watched videos he may or may not have accidentally uploaded from his phone There was an adorable little girl and lots of cacti and a bumpy road. He laughed in them but his voice was tired and sad like mine It was comforting I was sad and I wasn't sure how to feel because I wasn't sure what I'd imagined and what was real And his sad voice is real My sad voice is real Something was real Why can't the right thing to do also be what I want to do Ever Huh? I promised we'd be together The ring he gave me is spinning again I think I'm going to secretly hope--for a very, very long time I want to keep the stupid beautiful thing we made I fantasize that we'll bump into each other again And we'll start again and work backwards And that it'll be slow And he'll be more at peace with himself And I'll be more accomplished And our families will be content And the wall will magically disappear I'm going to secretly hope for a very, very long time |