How to royally fuck us up: Dear future anyone interacting with me-- if you think we're playing some kind of brinkmanship game then rest assured, we're not and we've both already lost. How many times do I need to say I'm not subtle? I don't do games. If I say I'm hurt and scared --it means I'm fucking hurt and scared. If you misconstrue that as a personal insult and take it as your chance to jump ship first-- then I am not going to stand on deck and clap for you. I am not going to feel confident about your commitment. I am going to feel like I'm carrying us along alone and like I better not complain. I am not going to dial it back after you let it snowball and I am not going to gratefully scrounge up sweet nothings that weren't there when I was fucking hurt and fucking scared. I hate being angry. And I won't be for long. |