everybody I'm thinking about my friend wrote a new manifesto for her birthday and it made me smile and i want to absorb it -- not remember -- soak up with leisure speaking of which, K is off to the north shore -- i miss her already but i know that she'll breathe better in the sea air and we'll have our time together soon enough (I don't mind the upcoming holiday so much anymore) I miss free time -- I feel so bad for my brother, he has so many academic clouds hanging over his head Soon we'll finish his thesis and I hope that makes him a little lighter My parents are bubbly -- it's relieving -- I wish they were constantly planning holidays My sister has embraced motherhood and she's so different now, she really is-- she's much softer and I feel like she worries less -- I'm so grateful I was wrong All of a sudden I have so many people to sing with and I feel silly for not asking earlier But most of all, in case you haven't noticed -- I do have room for more Yes, my head and heart were crowded-- But he can live here as long as he wants He does his part and fixes up the leaky plumbing And all the other tenants adore his company too Even if he does eventually move out and skip rent -- I think his landscaping will bring up the place's market value :) It's strange being in love after you've had lots of practice I think it's like going back to school when you're older All the miserable homework doesn't seem as depressing after you've been on the other side All the worry and the tummy butterflies seem funny And I'm grateful I'm grateful that I can love him, how he is and that I can love him now, how I am I'm sorry if I sound annoyingly glad But it's wonderful, it's wonderful-- even when it's awful it's dizzyingly thrillingly wonderful And if and when my heart splats I won't soon forget this |