unamused i don't need an excuse from someone like you to be someone like me ok? and this isn't about not smart enough or liberal enough or pretty enough or artsy enough this is about TTH the single most bitchy acronym ever invented (by mama dearest) stop TRYING TOO HARD which is different from trying and trying and trying even when you're tired because you know you have to open your eyes the next day and you do you open your eyes and it's a small act of faith that means everything i don't mean trying like that i mean being too god damn bored with the superficial empty life you've created because thinking about anything that means anything hurts i mean forcing yourself on me because i seem --fun! *giggle* and you like fun don't you, you like laughing and tickling your dick all the live long day pain bad, giggling good! WHAT ARE YOU TWO? actually i've met two year olds more profound the point is ... the point is it's POINTLESS YOU ARE POINTLESS A WASTE OF SPACE AND I HATE HAVING TO DEAL WITH YOU IT KILLS ME YOU ARE DEPRIVING ME FROM A QUALITY LIFE
okay i lied all of this is frustration with myself for not fighting harder because i can, i can fight harder i'm better but i'm still not good enough and even if there isn't an enough--god damn it i'm going to keep trying to find it
and that's how it should be and that's how it's always going to be PS, i love gigi koka can suck on poo |