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nothing potentially
Written @ 2:30 a.m. on 2012-01-29

i'm thinner by accident again
and i'm a fish without a bicycle (Steinem, in a carefully prepared off handed comment)

i've been thinking

and i don't think

i have potential,

since there's nothing really to be had right? (Fromm, in a borrowed book that I partly read and mostly skimmed)

and i enjoy hearing about this invisible thing i own

somehow it's more believable than any appreciation for tangible achievements

i've never understood why some people think you can't love who someone might be and also who someone is

and i don't understand the revolutionaries who are caught up in their image of might be, in their image

misunderstood potential
not wasted but waiting potential.
what a nothing word without our imagination, potential

and to admire it in me is more believable because... it's like loving me for nothing

i keep remembering my friend F so much.
his duck philosophy by the fountain and how he once said by the beach-

when i think of being nothing, of having never been, it makes me happy, it makes me calm

he scared me

but lately i've been fantasizing about the same thing, the same nothing and feeling the same way

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